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I was not making it up and it was not a lucky guess, it was Spirit. The first reading I gave to a stranger at my old job was the defining moment when I knew it was not a coincidence. All these things started happening, like knowing the exact day and time my grandfather had died before anyone had told me, or when I’d been in a car accident when my friend was driving just a little too fast and I remember hearing Spirit yell out my name, protecting me. It started happening with more and more people.
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I started to connect the dots, realizing that was coming from Spirit and that’s why I was emotionally and physically feeling these sensations connected to how she passed and things that she’s gone through. But then I realized that she lost her mom in 3rd grade, and every time she’d tell stories of her mom and her childhood, I’d hear or see the ending before she’s finish telling it. It all happened with this one girl in particular starting out and I was like, I think maybe I am gay. At first I thought I was gay to be honest, because I’d start getting these weird feelings and sensations around certain people. I’d be around friends and classmates and I’d get all emotional and start crying for no reason. Maybe if I was younger I would have been pushing it out, but at that time I thought I needed to figure out why I’ve been feeling these things. At that point I wasn’t afraid to explore it and strengthen that gift and develop it in a way. Even with my gift I was a rebel thinking, “I know my mom is going to think that this is the worst thing ever, she is gonna think that I’m connecting to the devil”, but I knew once I started having those experiences that it was a positive thing, a gift from God. But then going into high school, I was kind of a rebel with everything. I did so just out of my life and my surroundings and the people that were around me what I’ve been taught was right and wrong. I think that it’s a gift I had and I could’ve used even then, but that I’d suppressed it, not even knowingly. I definitely think that growing up being in a very Catholic household and going to Catholic school, contributed to me subconsciously suppressing my gift for all those years. Do you think you were more open to it at that point? You started exploring it?